I am flying to St. George's tomorrow!!!

"God does not give us overcoming life, he gives us life as we overcome. The strain is the strength. If there is no strain, there is no strength. Are you asking God to give you liberty and joy? He cannot, unless you accept the strain. Immediately you face the strain, you will get the strength." - Kristin Armstrong, "Mile Markers"

I am flying to Grenada tomorrow. at 1pm. from JFK. for medical school.
My bags are packed...
but a little too heavy (Surprise!), so I will need to do some final tweaking in that department.
My brain is swirling. While part of me is in super-nostalgia mode, i.e. "I don't want to leave people, familiar runs/routines/conveniences," I am also very excited and eager for this next chapter to begin. I feel very confident that I want to contribute to this world as a physician. It has taken me awhile to realize this, but I am certain and very excited to begin. The unknown is always intimidating to at least some degree, however, and the long time frame and financially large (ok, huge!) aspects of medical school make me recoil a little. My best cheerleaders are no longer by my side, and I am feeling a little isolated in m house surrounded by my thoughts, ziplock bags full of "necessities" and lists of final "things to do" before things really get in motion tomorrow.

Am I doubting myself? Not in an epic way, as in I don't think this is a "wrong" decision, but I am also certain that the next few weeks will require some effort and patience with transition.
Am I anxious? Totally.
I am just not quite in the "YES LET'S DO THIS!" mindset at the moment. Hopefully that will resurface soon!!

I think I should probably go for a run...move my body and be physical. Yes, that would help. Funny how I know this about myself, yet I want to do the opposite - i.e. be lazy and think about and overanalyze everything and the lack of control I have over the situation! Running will certainly help me gain some perspective, remember all the past adventures/new beginnings/inner strength that comes out when called upon. Prayer and trust. Love and patience. One thing at a time.

Here's to the next steps!!

Chloe