of my last exam in Grenada.
Thought this day might never come (or at least maybe not in the predicted 2 years)...
Like the feeling of Christmas Eve on steroids.
Thursday, May 16, 2013
Saturday, April 27, 2013
19 Days..
until my last final exam here at SGU in Grenada.
Totally surreal to think about all that has gone on here and how many changes lie ahead. I am a huge mix of feelings: extremely excited about being back in the states and getting to be with patients in only a few months, nervous about studying and doing well on the boards, sad to leave some really wonderful friends and people who I have connected with in ways that are completely unique, inexplicable and intense due to this common insanity we have experienced together...and unsettled to think about restarting and readjusting once again. However, I also know that I am ready to stop being a student 24/7. The shift from studying incessantly to serving others in a more tangible way will be infinitely more fulfilling, of that I am certain.
Time has both flown and crawled, as I've said before. I don't even think I will really 'get it' for awhile...three weeks. Wow.
Totally surreal to think about all that has gone on here and how many changes lie ahead. I am a huge mix of feelings: extremely excited about being back in the states and getting to be with patients in only a few months, nervous about studying and doing well on the boards, sad to leave some really wonderful friends and people who I have connected with in ways that are completely unique, inexplicable and intense due to this common insanity we have experienced together...and unsettled to think about restarting and readjusting once again. However, I also know that I am ready to stop being a student 24/7. The shift from studying incessantly to serving others in a more tangible way will be infinitely more fulfilling, of that I am certain.
Time has both flown and crawled, as I've said before. I don't even think I will really 'get it' for awhile...three weeks. Wow.
Saturday, January 12, 2013
Term 5 - the final round in Grenada (fingers crossed..!)
I am back in my room in Lance aux Epines, Grenada, for my fifth term at SGU. There are 124 days until my final Pharmacology Exam and the end of my 2nd year in med school.
It is amazing to think of all that has transpired already and the crazy time warps that you enter when pursuing such a crazy endeavor. At the same time the days have felt endless and impossibly speedy, and the ways that my brain has changed and adjusted are crazy to think about. I have definitely not navigated the whole process with grace the entire time (or ever), but I have definitely come to realize that there are a lot of people, relationships, lessons and experiences that I have been lucky enough to incorporate into my life by being here.
Certainly there have been many times where I've felt crazy, lonely, insecure and exhausted, but there have also been times where I'm just so excited by the information, the comraderie, the gorgeous island environment and the hope for my future career that I get more excited about as the clinical years are closer to my grasp.
My goals for this term (besides doing well academically!), are to stay more present, to try and stop worrying so much about the future, to stay true to myself and what makes me tick without comparing to others, and to work my butt off and just DO things without procrastination and avoidant behaviors!
In the end, this is such a blessing and incredible opportunity and I want to use it to better society and help as many future patients as I can. It is not going to be easy - but what really is 'easy' that is also worthwhile? And, at the heart of it, at this point, I do know that I'll make it. Maybe not with much grace...but I'll get there!
It is amazing to think of all that has transpired already and the crazy time warps that you enter when pursuing such a crazy endeavor. At the same time the days have felt endless and impossibly speedy, and the ways that my brain has changed and adjusted are crazy to think about. I have definitely not navigated the whole process with grace the entire time (or ever), but I have definitely come to realize that there are a lot of people, relationships, lessons and experiences that I have been lucky enough to incorporate into my life by being here.
Certainly there have been many times where I've felt crazy, lonely, insecure and exhausted, but there have also been times where I'm just so excited by the information, the comraderie, the gorgeous island environment and the hope for my future career that I get more excited about as the clinical years are closer to my grasp.
My goals for this term (besides doing well academically!), are to stay more present, to try and stop worrying so much about the future, to stay true to myself and what makes me tick without comparing to others, and to work my butt off and just DO things without procrastination and avoidant behaviors!
In the end, this is such a blessing and incredible opportunity and I want to use it to better society and help as many future patients as I can. It is not going to be easy - but what really is 'easy' that is also worthwhile? And, at the heart of it, at this point, I do know that I'll make it. Maybe not with much grace...but I'll get there!
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